Friendship && Trust...

I just had a bad realization. I don't think I have any real friends. Hmm.. Could that even be possible? I mean, come on. I'm the one who'll do anything for a friend, and yet I end up having none that would do the same for me. What is a real friend? What is a true friend? I might be thinking too much again, like I always do. But this one kills me inside... I think I trusted them too much... I think I'm thinking too much again..

Here's something for Jonny.
We were friends at one time...
Then you became someone I
didn't want to know.
Who are you?

Here's one for X.
We knew each other for a long time
And yet you seem not to value
me as someone you could trust
You chose to trust someone new
She seems to like being with you,
So I'll just shut up and pretend that I don't care.
I love you my big brother...

For Angela,
I want you to know that I trust you
But I don't think you feel the same way as I.
Was I wrong to reveal such a thing to you?
Nah, Don't worry about it.
I know you wont tell.
Or would you?

For Cat,
...
Hahaha, Yeah.
We had great times.
But you seem to hate everyone.
I mean, some people that ...
Well, let's just say
You judge the book by it's cover...
TOO MUCH.
But still, you're an adorable
friend and I love you so.
I just think it's too much..
I'm sorry...

I want to say more to my other friends, but I'm afraid I would realize or say something I shouldn't. I'm sorry guys. Tell me if I'm wrong! This ends here...

The First...

I am Gabrielle Throe. I was born in *, but I currently live in Neverland. I am one of the most unfortunate people in the world, mentally & emotionally. I am a *cough*VERY*cough* moody person. Sometimes, I'm the asshole who'll ruin your life. At other times, I will take care of you no matter what and do everything to make you happy. Only a few people actually see me get mad. I don't get mad often, only on rare occasions when I get so pissed off or annoyed. I'm basically an okay muffin. :D Hmm, some more things about me... Let's see, I have the Peter Pan Complex (No, I am not a guy. I am very much a girl.). With that said, Imma say it again. I have the Peter Pan Complex, meaning, I NEVER WANT to grow up, I hate change (change destroyed my relationship with my parents.), I fucking HATE responsibilities, I live in a fantasy world in my head, I daydream a lot, FUN is the MOST IMPORTANT thing for me, I never know what to do next, want to be successful without putting effort into it, I slack, I'm lazy, I hate work and school, I want to have better things in life but.. well.. you know... and finally, I am VERY FORGETFUL!

But wait! There's more! Call now and blah blah blah. Well, yeah, there IS more. More of who I am. I try to be very religious. I believe in Jesus Christ and I believe he is going to save me. Yes, I do. I depend on my parents (Duh! I'm only 16.), as of now, but after college (Yes, I AM in college at my age.) I shall leave to get a great job as a * and be as rich as *. I have a lot of dreams of becoming successful, for my parents and for myself, but somehow I lack the will to be the best person I can be. I have no inspirations in life and I don't think I would love anyone as a life-partner. Among all the things I value in life, the most important one is actually three-in-one, my family, God, & my loving friends, the most important persons in my life. They are the people I trust and love, and I will sacrifice my life to see them happy. It kinda sounds hard to believe, right? Yeah, It is. But if I ever REALLY have to, then I will. I value my friends more that I do myself. :]

Of all the things that I don't like. The worst would prolly be being BORED. Yup! I hate getting bored, nothing to do and stuff like that. I get cranky, annoyed and MOODY when I'm bored. It's like a fucking sickness! And to cure that, I will have to either... Play my guitar, listen to music, talk to my friends, play video games, eat something, drink juice, walk around the neighborhood with my MP3, use the bike, play with my sibs, read a good book, write about nothing or something, soundtrip, call up my friends, kill the lights, take a bath, watch T.V., chat on MSN & YM, ride on my skateboard, practice playing soccer, asking a friend to play chess, lay down on my bed and listen to music, dance with my lil bro and listen to music, raid my dad's computer table and play with a lighter, listen to my favorite bands, ask for money from my parents, go to the plaza and buy things, tell my friends that smoking is a very bad thing & that being single is sexy, sit on a chair and play my guitar, download songs, ask for another MP3 from my parents, yawn & stretch, draw things that look ugly, stare at the stars while listening to my MP3, watch the clouds pass by, and MORE.

Well, that's all I can say about me... If you want more, I wont say a single thing. You have to get to know me first. I'm easily befriended anyway. Ciao~